I wish I had been looking out the kitchen window that day…peering
left toward the neighbor’s house where the wind-beaten fence makes the yards. It must have been a sight, that squirrel with
the bulldog gumption. Incisors sunk into
the impossible haul. Claws scrabbling backward,
awkward, up the pin oak bark. As much as
I bemoan their birdfeeder raids and flower bed thievery, kudos to the squirrel
that managed to hoist that pillow to his nest some 30 feet above the
ground.
An ingenious plan at first.
Why assemble a nest of dead leaves in constant need of resupply? Why not filch a pillow, tear a hole into
stuffing and enjoy a cozy, weather-proof nest all winter long? Except that winter rains and snow have a way
of seeping in and turning comfy, fluffy, snug into soggy, lumpy, intolerable. I don’t know how long the pillow had been crooked
in the oak branches. I only noticed it
when tufts of white batting began to drift to the winter lawn below. After searching for the source, I found it
there, high amongst the forks. Several
twigs bandaged like fingers in white gauze jutted from the main pile where the
squirrel had triumphantly stuffed the pillow. I shook my head in equal parts
amazement (what a clever scheme!) and disdain (what a waste of time and energy
and now a mess for me to clean up.)
That’s how my mind read it: a
great idea, but an even greater failure.
A week or so later, I noticed the pillow cover dangling from the crook
in the tree… a tattered reminder of an effort for naught. The enterprise had been abandoned and the
white flag fluttered in surrender. The
squirrel had gone back to gathering crunchy dead leaves for his nest.
As I considered the amazing pillow adventure, I came to realize
that there was much wisdom to be gleaned from the way the squirrel moved past
his failure. He had tried something new,
something unknown. It held promise and
seemed to be a good decision in the beginning.
But ultimately the plan fell through and needed to be jettisoned. Not unlike so many grand plans of my own…the
crafting site…the countless efforts to organize the triplets’ clothing…the
diets and exercise regimens. The
difference, however, was that the squirrel moved on without regret…no wringing
of hands, no berating himself for time lost, no worrying about the expense of
backtracking and rebuilding. Just a
carefree Matthew 6:26 attitude, an easy going Phillippians 4:6 mindset about
the future, a confident Matthew 7:11 approach to each new day. So often, my response to failure comes
straight out of Lamentations and lingers there for weeks. But isn’t the squirrel’s method how our
Heavenly Father wants us, His highest creation, to greet each new opportunity? Feisty pluck layered over a foundation of
calm assurance in His ultimate good plan for us?
To be sure, calm without pluck is an incomplete picture of who we
are in Christ. Jesus paid for us to be
partakers of His inheritance and we’re encouraged to pursue those blessings
with grateful hearts. As new creations
in Him, we should never strive to line our lives with the dead, lifeless “it’ll
do” of this fallen world. We are called
to abundant life through Christ (John 10:10), believing that His lavish love
for us includes a soft pillow to rest on.
When we do this, we elevate His name and shine the light of His goodness
to others who are still constructing lives out of that which is fading away.
But pluck without calm is also incomplete. We’re to weave our work with fingers flying
open, ready to let go of baggage that’s holding us back, agreeable to seasons
of change and always trusting that our Provider will supply our needs no matter
how rash or rushed or imprudent we’ve been with the building of our nests. He knows full well about locusts that consume
our days, perhaps even our years and He doesn’t want us to look around at what
has been devoured but rather upward at what His storehouses yet contain for us
to receive.
So why don’t I drag more pillows up into the trees of my
life? What keeps me from embarking on
that believing, that pursuing of New Covenant blessing? After considering the squirrel’s journey, I
think my hesitation stems from the prospect of dealing with failure’s
residue…lost time, wasted resources, the awkwardness of coming up short in the
eyes of others. Too often I try to
determine the outcome of an opportunity before deciding whether it’s worthy of
a leap of faith and I’m cowed at the remembrance of other past failed efforts. At the heart of the matter, I still struggle
with fully letting go…of my ability to control, of my need for man’s approval,
of condemning thoughts that keep me scrounging for autumn’s fallen. I
know these traits are deadwood in my life, but they’re familiar and safe and no
one questions a crumbling nest when every other nest in sight is crumbling as
well. It’s the squirrel with the
audacity to drag a pillow high into a tree that gets the scrutiny, the whispers,
the frowns. And some days, many perhaps, I’m just too
battered by those fiery darts to heave the heavier load, and so I opt for the
lighter leaves.
But lately, I’ve been coming to know the rain. Not like the squirrel knows it, as an
adversary that brings ruin to his labor, but rather as the gentle rain of the
Spirit. Pastor Jack Hayford* teaches
about the dual purpose of this symbol and it’s easy to see why a loving God tends
to us like a spring shower.
The Spirit’s rain comes “first, as refreshing where there has been dryness and barrenness (Joel
2:23-29). Second, as restoration where there has been loss (Isa.
28:11-12).”
And isn’t that exactly what I need as the foil to my
preoccupation with maybe-failure? The
Spirit finds me there in Deuteronomy 32: His “teaching falls like rain…on
tender plants.” After the bruising of my
critics – external and internal – the Spirit comes with just-right droplets of
refreshing to build my wincing spirit up again. And because He gives to overflowing, the
Spirit rains again. He rescues me in
Isaiah 43, and “sends a new stream to carve a way through the wasteland” of my dashed
dreams. I am cowed no more. Even the enemy’s fiery darts thrown toward my
life’s kindling meet their end in water:
Ephesians 6 sees me delivered a third time by the powerful quenching of
the shield of faith which repels the accuser and allows me to focus on all of
the Father’s grace toward me.
Spring’s coming and the lion winds will be knocking loose the
remnants of the brown leaf nest soon. A
new one will be built with green foliage for the summer as the squirrel contends
with a cycle of constructing that which is bound to be deconstructed and looks
for ways to hinder the rain from trickling in.
I’ll be busy at my nest-building, too.
But because of one squirrel’s wisdom, I’ll spend a lot less time in
endless analysis, worry and regret. This
season I plan to build with expectation, peace and trust. And unlike the squirrel, I’ll be building a
nest that’s available to the rain. Lots
and lots of rain.
*http://www.jackhayford.org/articles1-412/SymbolsoftheHolySpirit
beautifully written jen... "no one questions a crumbling nest when every other nest in sight is crumbling as well." that is definitely some food for thought!
ReplyDeleteThank you, friend :-) Funny how bits of nature can be such grand teachers, no? God is so creative in how He reaches our hearts! Blessings prayed your way :-)
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